I'm BAACK! And I'd say it's about time too. LOL! Last week was just a total loss with everything. Being sick the first 3 days of the week sure didn't help me any I'll say that much. Then I just got into an I don't want to do anything mood........and the rest is history! That and I think I might drive myself crazy trying to decide whether to apply for the math job at FSHS or not. There are so many positive and negative reasons for me that I just don't know what to do. I realize that just because I apply doesn't mean I'll get it at all, but there's a good possibility since math teachers aren't a dime a dozen by any means. I just don't know whether I'm ready to give up staying home with the girls yet. I absolutely LOVE being able to be here with them everyday, watching them grow, helping them learn new things......*SIGH!* This one's going to take a LOT of prayer and faith. Maybe I'll put down some of the reasons for and against while I'm here. Might help shed a little light on a decision. Ok, here goes:
Why I would want to apply for the job:
1. Being able to stay in touch with my youth kids on a daily basis (at least most of them).
2. Adult interaction and conversation
3. New friendships
4. I am a good math teacher
5. Less $$ worries (able to save more, etc)
6. Being a more active member of the community as a whole
7. Vesting my retirement fund (I quit with one year short!)
8. Sharing my knowledge with a new set of kids
9. Being able to be a positive Christian influence on more kids in town
10. Having a housecleaner would make a lot more sense. LOL!
11. Josh could come hang out with me after school
12. My youth kids have said they think it'd be great if I was there
Why I would not want to apply for the job:
1. I would miss being with my girls all day!!
2. Grandpa needs someone around just in case something happens
3. I would miss seeing Kenny at lunch a couple of times a week
4. Paying for child care, clothes, lunches, etc
5. What would my MOPS gals do without me? (I love you guys!)
6. Being able to go places with mom or Amanda or whoever on a weekday sure is nice!
7. Wouldn't have as much time to put into my youth work
8. Would probably have to quit my PC biz (actually I did better at it when I was working full time! LOL!)
9. Not as much time to spend on my hobbies/interests
10. I would miss being with my girls all day!
Looks like a pretty even match up to me. Ok, Lord this one's for you. I have NO IDEA what I'm supposed to do on this one. Sometimes I think that I shouldn't even worry about it because I'm not all excited about this job being a possibility. Then Kenny reminded me that if I had my way, I wouldn't ever go back to a real job. And how right he is, but I know that I am going to have to someday if we want to be able to stay where we are. Then I get to thinking about how maybe God has other things in store for us. Oh I am so CONFUSED! The biggest thing is leaving my girls. Oh how I love those babies/toddlers/hooligans! We have so much fun together........and then when Josh gets home, it all just gets better. I love being a mom. Did I say that before? If not, it's true. I love kids. My kids, my youth kids, my MOPS kids, the kids in children's church. I love them all! I always have loved kids. That's another reason for considering the job. I'd get to know and love even more kids! Ah!! I think I need to quit now as I am driving myself mad with all these crazy thoughts. Pray, Michelle, PRAY! And then listen for his still, small voice to give you the answer.
1 comment:
Guess I'm here more than you are.
Having just checked out you last post (again) I have to say Congratulations on making the decision the Lord apparantly wanted you to make. You are a great math teacher and you will have your work cut out for you. Maybe this will be a place you can relax when August comes and the world feels like it's coming tumbling down around you. More than a blog--maybe a prayer request spot.
You've decided to change careers almost altogether now. The only thing that stays the same is that you will still be a great wife and mother. But you will have the opportunity to make a big impact on a bunch of young people who may otherwise never hear of the love of our Lord and Savior. We need many more teachers with your love of God and Jesus Christ.
In an aside, I spoke to Bob C the other day--buying fireworks from his stand--and accused him of leaving just so you could have the job. He said yep, he was always thinking of other people. He's liking his new job and still asking more questions than he's answering. He looks good though and still wearing a FS football shirt.
Don't know how long before you read this, but I would hope you can access this site from your new job and unload from time to time. If not, you have my e-mail. Feel free to let me know how you're doing. I'm always praying for you. That's why I come here from time to time.
Love and prayers.
E.
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